My intention to stop engaging in diets, cleanses, and detoxes was to stop the back and forth and overall fixation on what I eat and how thin I am or if I’m back to my prepregnancy body. While I know it’s totally possible for woman to get their prepregnancy bodies back, I also realize that there are many factors that come into play with this, and that a woman who doesn’t have strong emotional ties to food will probably have an easier and more smooth transition back to her prepregnancy body than someone who does have those strong emotional ties. Or a woman who has help with her baby, or is going back to a job or life that bears semblance to her life before becoming a mom may have an easier transition as well (just speculating). For me, my life has gone through such huge changes that it makes sense that my diet needs some changes, not just for purely physical reasons but also emotional and psychological reasons as well.
I love cleansing and detoxing. It changed my life and gave me a body I never had before, not as teenager, nor at any time in my youth. What bothers me is that I was too blind and perhaps a bit naive to see that while it started out as something that made me feel incredibly free, it actually became more of a prison for me as I held myself to higher and higher standards in terms of how lean I should be, how perfect my skin should look once I engaged in this lifestyle and enthusiastically began to spread the word. Getting my certification in nutrition and colon hygiene only made me take myself and my appearance even more seriously. My dark side was really showing itself but I either didn’t want to see it or just felt so overwhelmed by all of the pressure I put on myself that I didn’t see any other options besides that ugly, annoying word: PERFECTION.
Perfection doesn’t have to be a bad thing, but I think it does more harm than good when you have an idea of what perfection looks like and you are hell bent to achieve it no matter what the consequences are. Why did I take my appearance so seriously but not the things that really mattered like my work, or my relationships, my writing, or how much fun and spontanaity I brought into my day to day life?
Perhaps focusing on what really matters most will be what brings me the freedom I seek along with seeing the truth behind my diet and lifestyle choices.Am I abstaining from certain foods for empowerment, or am I abstaining them because I feel I must? Am I engaging in certain types of exercises because it makes me feel energized and good in my skin, or am I doing it as a sort of self punishment in order to look a certain way? Empowerment is always the answer when it comes to health, I believe. If something makes me feel genuinely better about myself, that is good, if something makes me feel bad or like I’m lacking, then it probably doesn’t have my greatest health in mind.
So today I’m going to be share what matters most to me, and what empowers me, with you. There is only one mention of food in there.
I think those nine things are a great start. I know I will add to this list as times goes on, but these are the basics.
It’s been two months now that I’ve been un-dieting, and I have to say that I am feeling more at peace with myself than I have in a long time. It’s almost like I’ve come to a deep understanding of what I need and what I want in my life, and that has lead me to feeling more present with myself and with others, and that’s always a really wonderful feeling.
Actually, I believe that’s the purpose of all of this cleansing and healthy living stuff.
Deep down, I’ve always believed that!
So now I’d love to hear from you. What sort of things do you find to be empowering, and therefore healthy? I think it’s great to have food related things be a part of that empowerment list but I’m curious as to what else makes you feel great about yourself. Please share in the comment section below!